Racing Mind….

She’s sleeping. I’m awake. She’s dreaming. I’m listening to music. Wes Duce to be exact. She loves me. I love her. Life’s good. Can’t complain. Such a dope album. Honesty, that is. Lol. This track that just came on. My God. It kind of caught me off guard. I love it. Did I mention I love her. Sarah, that is. She’s my everything. Where would I be without her? Let me check my iPhone real quick. Got a convo going with the homie, D. Nice. That kid stays hooping. Hope I helped. I give advice to my friends. Always with well wishes. They gotta be happy. I gotta be happy. She has to be happy. Tumblr’s still up. Let me check that real quick. I hear her sleeping. Such a beautiful sound of my better half peacefully sleeping. I miss Mike. I miss Mary. I miss Red. Every post is for them. What sneakers am I gonna wear tomorrow? Retro 3s? Pearl Foams? I’ll figure it out. Gotta sleep soon. Not until I finish with Honesty though. So dope. NT should be proud of Wes. I’m not NT though. Still proud, nonetheless. Never met the kid. Maybe one day. I gotta call my mom tomorrow. Let her know I love her. My dad too. Dom too. It’s crazy how fast my mind races. Goodnight.

No Sleep Till Brooklyn…

For some odd reason, I’ve had trouble sleeping. It’s the craziest thing. I clearly have some kind of insomnia. I guess I can take the time to blog more. That makes me happy. Oh well.

MLK…

I took a trip to DC with my friend, Brittany. We finally got to see the MLK memorial in person. It was truly an unbelievable experience. Just being there, reading his quotes, really touched my heart. The things he did for equality are amazing. It was wonderful seeing people marveling at something so moving. I told Sarah we had to go back so we can experience and see it together.

Positive….

Can you imagine the things that we could do without the hate? Without the anger? How about without all the fear that consumes so many of us? We let so many things run our lives. We don’t even give ourselves to truly be great. To find happiness. To find whatever it is we’re all looking for. Sometimes , you really have to get out of own way. Sometimes, your biggest obstacle is yourself.

Sarah….

Sleep Problems…

It’s a beautiful day in Virginia Beach. I’m sitting at Sarah’s watching ESPN. Skip Bayless is hilarious, by the way. I didn’t sleep well last night. No particular reason as to why, but I didn’t. Guess I just had a lot on my mind. This is my second home. I feel as comfortable here as I do at my own apartment. Probably more comfortable. I think my mind just constantly wants to write. I welcome that. I love that. It shows me that I still have that fire in me to do this. Word. I still got it. Word.

Thank You….

I’m back at this after a long hiatus. Life has changed so much over the last 6-7 months. I missed writing and updating this thing. I missed the feelings it gave me. The happiness I felt when someone mentioned a post they read. The feeling that maybe someone read my words and felt better about their life. I really touched someone’s life. Thank God for that. I love that feeling. It means the world to me. It touches my heart to touch you heart. So, thank you to any and everyone who read my blog, commented on my blog, or let my blog touch them at any point. My hiatus is over and I’m back at it. I think I’m better now than I was then. Welcome to any new people reading and welcome back to all those who followed this blog post by post before. You are all family to me. I help me get better and do better.

Marriage?….

My homie Derek thinks that I’m gonna marry Sarah. Crazy thing is…the thought has crossed my mind. Our relationship is nowhere near that point yet. I care about that girl more than I’ve cared about any other girl….ever. Point blank. Period. I went through so much to get her and I never wanna let her go. I never want to let go of the feeling I have when I’m with her. I never wanna be without her. I want her in my life forever. Is that crazy? Am I crazy for feeling like this after only two and a half months? If I am…oh well. I don’t really care. I mean every word in this post and I hope when she reads this, she knows.

It’s Time….

Good things are happening to the people around me and I love it. I enjoy seeing the people around me doing well. It’s time for me to stop waiting on things to happen. It’s time for me to find my success. It’s time for my book. It’s time to spread my words to the word.

It’s time.

SAB….

I wish I could read your mind, but I can’t. I don’t know what your feeling if you don’t tell me. It doesn’t work like that. I know you think you overreact to things, but you don’t. You just don’t give me the chance to put your mind at ease. You wait. And, you wait more. You attempt to just get over it yourself, but sometimes talking to me first would help. I love you, and you know that, but I can’t help if you don’t let me. If I could, I would make sure you never had a doubt about anything in our relationship. I promise, when I get quiet, it’s not because of you. A lot of things go through this head of mine. But, take my word, it’s not changing the way I feel about you or us. All I’m thinking about are things I can do to make you more proud of me. I want you to be proud of me. I NEED you to be proud of me. I NEED you. That notion use to scare the shit out of me. Now, I welcome it. I opened myself up for this feeling. I actually like this feeling now.